Ok. Ned approves of Anatomy of Murder. He’s said all the right things about it, so now I can relax. Just waiting to hear from my parents now, so not really relaxed at all but there you go.
It may sound a bit pathetic to worry so much about what my nearest and dearest think of the book, but I’m not so sure it is. We’re going to be spending a fair amount of time over the next year with this book. Ned is very good about coming to events and readings with me and as someone who by choice spends their working life in isolation, I kind of rely on that support. He gives good advice too – we talk a lot about what things I’m going to say to different audiences. Given then that he’s going to have to spend time listening to me, in public and private, and a lot of time talking about the book himself, it is important that he likes Anatomy too. Also I want him to think I’m cool. It’s similar with Mum and Dad. Mum was a one woman PR campaign for Instruments so I want her to be as enthusiastic about Anatomy. Also I want them to be proud of me.
Putting a book out there does mean you are personally and professionally putting yourself out there too. It’s not something I’m particularly comfortable with, but I think authors owe it to their books and their publishers to support publication as much as possible. It makes me feel incredibly vulnerable. Lucky, proud, very happy and fortunate, but vulnerable too. I can do it, but it would be so much more difficult without being able to think of your loved ones and say to yourself, well they think it’s good, so I must be doing something right. Gives you the necessary boost to put your smiley face on and get out there.